I swear me having a BIG EGO is not an overstatement!! I have to laugh at myself sometimes…LOL 😉 You ever just feel like “I’m the SHIT” so why isn’t such and such giving me the play. The truth here is that the such and such I speak of is someone who I never should have given the “play”. In an effort to continue whatever we started, I have called and texted. I was successful in my pursuit too…but let’s just say that when the night ended, baby I was going home alone…hilarious to me…but it’s okay…my Ego, let’s call her “Latrece” just for fun and laughs…was hurt, devastated and shocked…not to mention no real companionship in three weeks (if you know what I mean)…almost four now…SMH…by choice of course…you know when you choose…you choose because the options are always present…I think…that’s Latrece talking again.
I’m going to make this one short today…so over the weekend I learned “when it’s over it’s over”. It doesn’t matter what you do…if someone is done fooling with you, they are just done…I now understand why Jazmine Sullivan busted the windows out the fellas car…I know how that feels to want to do just that…but watch out for Karma ladies…Have you ever found yourself cussing out someone on his voice mail or sending threatening text messages? With no return calls or texts? OMG…that was me…at the end of the day when you go home and lay it down…turn off your phone and wake up to a new day you realize okay…I’m cool now…I feel better now…everything for a reason. Makes me wanna delete this brother from my phone…I swear…
At the end of the day though…a host of rejection experiences have allowed me to develop a very thick skin…those who know me best know my sensitivities…but I’ve been through so much now in dating relationships that I’m like…I’m strong enough to withstand almost anything…anything that anyone tries to do to me…shoot has already been done…WOW! I just look back over my young adult life and just don’t even know or understand how I made it through…and how I’m still here…still hoping and believing that LOVE is still possible for me!! Let me tell you though…when God is the SOURCE anything is possible…I’m DIVINELY healed as well! Isn’t it amazing how God can just allow you to go through the fire and come out shining like pure gold?! So I thank and praise Him for that…and am learning to not sweat the small stuff…let my Ego go and know that what’s best for me is on the way…so all the JERKS have to be removed…Mr. Right Now can kick rocks!! LOL!
Blessings to you all!!