Wisdom & Understanding: The Epiphany
Last week was a little rough. I had been praying about a certain situation with a guy; praying for some type of revelation as to why this man stopped communicating with me. Now, I began my detox program on May 1, 2010. As you know with the detox, you do more than shed the physical pounds; you also shed the dead weight; ie, jobs, people, old thoughts and habits from your life. Somehow, it’s just difficult to go backwards when you begin the journey to your Higher Self. Reverting back will always make things difficult and painful for you because as a result you will have to undo and redo everything you’ve been working toward so diligently; the ultimate lifestyle change.
The turmoil I experienced this past week was not in vain. Thank God! I just received the revelation that I had been praying for as well as my healing. As you know, the process had already begun prior to making contact with the man who has decided to become (M.I.A.) missing in action from my life. I also deviated from my new, pure and holistic diet, which may have clouded my judgment. Let’s just say, when you are on your way to your next level and to your healing, do not seek out behaviors, individuals, or anything that will be harmful to you. Sometimes you will not be aware of whether or not a certain person in your life is possibly toxic. Your Higher Self is always communicating what’s best for you 24/7, but you really have to listen and pay attention. Often times, the universe (God), is actually doing us a big favor when someone decides to exit our life without giving us a warning sign.
Presently, I’m totally okay with the recent rejection I’ve encountered. It has brought me back to my life’s mission. Now that I’ve re-focused my energy back on developing things that I love (my work, my writing), I feel 100% better. I can’t believe that I allowed myself to travel backwards on my journey. So for the last week, I was really trying to figure out what went wrong? Why ol’ boy has just disappeared on me? But some type of miraculous healing has taken place in my life, and it took seven whole days and also getting back to my pure diet for me to receive this healing. I mean I had been beating myself up thinking I did something wrong to run the brother away. The more he ignored me, the more the crazy woman, old me acted out. Acting out is never the way to get a man’s attention. He will come around when he’s good and ready; I just don’t know what the excuse for no communication will be and honestly I could care less. Me being able to look back on even my past year of development of self is enough for me to be proud of and realize how strong I really am.
Anyone who appears to try and drag you down or get you off of your path to the ultimate love of self and Creator, doesn’t need to be around anyway. Those are people who only want to be around for their own self-interests and not to add any type of substance to your life. It is better to recognize the red flags early on; and you know what? The flags were present the whole time; I just ignored them and pursued what I thought would be satisfying for me at the time. In the long run, I wound up feeling hurt and misunderstood. I’m so grateful and thankful for this day to be able to wake up and worry no more about a week old situation. Letting go and focusing on me has been the best remedy thus far!